From ‘A Raisin in the Sun’…

Beneatha Independence and then what? What about all the crooks and thieves and just plain idiots who will come into power and steal and plunder the same as before - only now they will be black and do it in the name of the new Independence - WHAT ABOUT THEM?!

Asagai That will be the problem for another time. First we must get there.

Beneatha And where does it end?

Asagai End? Who even spoke of an end? To life? To living?

Beneatha An end to misery! To stupidity! Don’t you see there isn’t any real progress, Asagai, there is only one large circle that we march in, around and around, each of us with our own little picture in front of us - our own little mirage that we think is the future.

Asagai That is the mistake.

Beneatha What?

Asagai What you just said about the circle. It isn’t a circle - it is simply a long line - as in geometry, you know, one that reaches into infinity. And because we cannot see the end - we also cannot see how it changes. And it is very odd but those who see the changes - who dream, who will not give up - are called idealists…and those who see only the circle we call them the “realists”.

Looking for a Fach…

para dar.

This time during finals season last year, I was in shambles all around. My academic situation was falling apart and didn’t have the slightest idea about what to do. My grades weren’t horrible but my motivation and sense of purpose were completely shot. From the outside looking in, this year may be the same in some sense - except this time internally, I’m actually not about to explode into a chaotic psychological mess. Relatively speaking I’m OK. Great even. I know what I want, but my present commitments (…..school and this looming pressure to either succeed at a formal institution or FAIL at life ) seem to be getting in the way of that. The only problem is that I know it would probably be best for me to move on to whatever my next step may be responsibly, and not just up and BOUNCE like I really want. Doing things like that can come back to haunt you if your desires change in the future.

Sooooo, in order to get through these next few days I’m telling myself that I owe it to myself to put the work in. Throwing my hands up in the air (and I’d pretty much have no problem doing that) would be like stabbing myself in the back for enduring this entire semester. The stress, the late nights/early mornings, Metro Card and gas money…everything. It would all sort of be a waste if I just walked away.  I just wish I had come to this realization before today, the day before my exams begin. -__-

Into the books I go.